only hope...

dear Lord,

my heart...is full of tears...

im so scared...im so scared of what's gonna happen...

i can't let go...i dun wanna let go...

i can't breathe...i can't cry...n i jz wanna die...

pentecost is tmr...

deep down in my heart i still chosed him instead of You...

You who is always there for me...

when tears flow, when heart pounds, when breathing seems so difficult & painful...

dear Lord...when will u take me home? 

i know...
it's almost time... :'(