Friday, January 1, 2010

a blessing in disguise...



d ent/gynae ward

2months ago,
when i found out i was posted to ent/gynae for management...
i cried! n i cried real badly!
lk i was crazy...

sem4 :
i was scolded (shouted actually) by a very pretty staff nurse for d 1st time in history...
all i answered her was "ermm...but his wife is inside"
she chased me n shouted "is d patient's wife suppose to do ur work??"
fainted** i really din mean to not do my work...n i was jz asking! but i really din know tat even patient's wife is in d room...i still hv to help my patient get dress up!! scratching my head** sigh**
my 1st reaction when some1 shouted at me...was to runaway...so i ran for my life!
i din mean to be rude...but to her i was rude! n there goes im chopped..."ketua kongsi gelap"
as im d group leader tat sem! fainted*
"ths haunted me for almost a year!!" cried so long...thking am i wrong? am i? am i?  :(

sem5 :
"hah??? i hv to go back to d ward for practical for 2weeks??"
cried again** i feel tat they all hated me!! :S
BUT...God really blessed me...
guess wat...d 2weeks im posted there... :P...
there wasnt even once tat im in d same syift as her...hahaha...
God really heard me crying!!

sem6 :
management in ent/gynae???????????
wink* now u see y i said...i cried lk i was crazy?! :P

BUT...
thgs really really really hv been so beautiful...
it was d best posting tat i've ever had!!
how they taught us without looking down on us...
how they forgive me for my wrongs...
how they accept tat im a student n i don't know much...
how they make sure tat someday i may be perfect lk them...
how they never gave up though i always forget thgs :P
how they joke wif us...
how they make us feel special wif d damn bold sdmc students...
tq very very much staffs of ent/gynae...
oh yea..forgot to mention kak mega n also kak su...
u guys are all so great!
n kak mega, i'll never forget u...u're really a superwoman!
huhuhu...love u all so much!
i really hope to work in ent/gynae bcz of u alll...
but...i really wanted to work in d onco ward...
its y i bcome a nurse :(
i wanna care for d terminally ill n d dying...i wanna be there for them...
how i wish ent/gynae is d onco ward :(
im so sad...now its already d end of my 2months of posting...

oh yea...4got to mention : d staff nurse left n went to saudi already...tats y :P
now those left are all d angels!
tq so much for everythg especially deputy bimel...u're really so special! u make my days in ent/gyane so beautiful...n u really taught me alot!
tq so much also to my mentor..sn fizah...tq so much for everythg....n so sorry for all d troubles i've caused u.
not forgetting deputy noriza...sn teong...sn suriana...n all of u...for teaching us n making us feel lk home!!
love u all so much!! God bless u all...









the rest is still unwritten...

2010...

its now 2010...
time flies...
2009 ended jz lk tat...
i wanna rmb it all...
but i wanna forget it all...
rmb it to keep somethg beautiful tat i thought was a present to me
forget it coz im a nobody n i know its time to let go as some1 new has come,
jz at d right time for him...so tat i can leave him in 2009!

they say im too stuborn...
they ask for a chance...they say they can replace...they say many thgs...
i really felt so touched...
i really felt so grateful...
i really wish i can accept...
i really wish!! :(
BUT
born wif the stuborn-ness of my daddy... :P (i jz realize where it came from too)
my brain refuses to forget...
my heart refuses to let go...
though i know very well...ths guy is not for me...
i guess more than 10pails of water i hv shed...
am i tired? yes!
but tears shed...bleeding stops...
d heart heals slowly...it keeps me sane!

:) my dears...
tq for liking me...
tq for ths miracle as...i use to tell my frens,
"God will not drop down guys for me from heaven tat will come knocking at my door all of a sudden"
but now i know HE WILL...
coz there came u guys!! :')
He will for me...n HE WILL for u too...
i believe every1 has their own some1 prepared by God.
i will not say...we are impossible...
coz ntg is impossible...
mayb u are d 1...
but right now...i guess,
my heart needs a rest.

you asked...y is he so special??...
honestly "i don't know!!"
i prayed for love...
n i fell in love...
i've waited for it so long in my life...
its lk cinderella, snow white n beauty
i felt lk im d princess when im wif him...
coz its love...
d love tat makes me feel lk a princess...
i guess...tat's y he's so special...
coz i love him! :(
well...
d clock strikes 12mn...
n now im back to who i really am...
i guess life has jz gotta go on... :(
so...

bag packed... adjusting my bag on my back*
im heading to d long highway...
no matter wat ... rain, snow, hot sun?
i hv it all in my bag, all tat is needed...together wif my secret weapon...
da da da da...my umbrella!!!  :P ella...ella...ella (hahaha*)
tq for stopping ur car...n offering me a ride...
but right now i would lk to take a walk...
scroll down n see d nature...
wud u lk to walk wif me?
i believe...man power is much needed in charity...they need a mummy n a "daddy"
join me please will u? :D

2010 mission :
i hope to serve...
1. st thomas more church
2. house of joy
3. the sick
i hope to give my family a better life...
1. brg mummy go shopping
2. settle a bit of daddy's burden
3. brg my bro n sisters go grab nice yummy expensive food :P
fingers crossed...God pls help me...
all i wanna do is to serve...
mr peter imran said "it will be a gd year for u!"
wow! u really do sound so sure of tat n i really do hope so!! wink*