how am i suppose to breathe without u again?

"Men like older women because "Elder women are more wise and experienced in their relationships with men.Agree?"
a quotation from his' facebook :( ...
i believe there's a time n reason for everythg...that Jesus will also help put/arrange for us...
i guess the time has come...almost near...
i will rmb all tat i promise...to keep all our memories n let him go...when he wants to...
i can feel my heart beating fast...i wonder "how am i suppose to breathe after it finally happened?" 
i rmb n will never forget...how hard breathing is thking tat he's not by myside anymore...wondering how is he doing...is he eating well?...is he having any headache/fever/stomach upset?...is he happy? 
i know i shouldnt be greedy...
soon most probably im gonna hv to move on n lead my own life again...
no matter how hard it is gonna be...i know i'll hv Jesus right by my side...


:) forgot to update a happy memory...
he msg me 1evening while he was shopping "i brought somethg for u" 
:') here wif me now is issey miyake...
"dear issey miyake...i love you so much...ur smell n everythg abt u...coz not only u r issey miyake...but u r from him...
now u're gonna stay wif me...remind me of our happy moments even when he's gone...u're gonna accompany me okay? 
i hope i can carry ur elegant smell...n i hope u lk me too!..."