can i have real hope once again? ...

seeing so many of my frens in love...
envy feels my heart n soul...
looking back...i hv not only lost hope in love...
i lost hope in myself...
i stopped loving myself...
i stopped believing that i too worth somethg...

maybe...
maybe God allow him to come back to my life...
to help me to really really let him go...
to hv hope once again in love...
can i? will i? i leave it all to Him...