fear...

i wish i'll die, when breathing seems difficult...
i wish i'll stop breathing, when tears can't stop flowing...

but still i'll let you go...
if letting you go, gives you happiness...
as long as you're happy...
even with tears of sadness...
tears of missing you...
tears of not being able to love you...
i will be happy for you...
i will smile for you...

my dear...promise me...
that you will be happy...
i'll be miserable if i do not know how u're doing...
whether you still hv headaches or feeling dizzy?
whether you're losing weight more n more?
whether you're drinking & smoking more than you should?
n most of all...whether will she love you for me?
i know you'll be happier being wif some1 you love more...

i know you'll take gd care of yourself...
tats why i should stop reacting like im a superwoman...
while there's ntg i could do for you...
my dear...
i wish i'll forget everythg that ever happen btw us...
coz its all jz a dream...
a dream tat i thought is too gd to be true...
but the truth is...d dream is never real before...