i learnt, in a very unforgettable way...

Love…
I ask Jesus to show me what is love…
N ths is wat He had to say :
Y am I sad?
I say : bcoz I dun mean anythg to him
Jesus say : bcoz I dun mean anythg to u

I say : I keep looking for him hoping tat he’ll come back
Jesus say : I keep looking for u hoping tat u’ll come back

I say : I wish that he will thk of me, even for just awhile
Jesus say : I wish tat u will thk of me, even just for awhile
I say : I wish he gave me a chance to love n care for him as much as I do
Jesus say : I wish tat u gave me a chance to love n care for u as much as I do

I say : eventhough he dun love me, I wish that he will take care of himself, not get sick like he always does n everthg will go fine with his life
Jesus say : eventhough u dun love me, I still wish tat u will be well n everythg goes on fine with ur life

I say : y did he left when all I want is to love him? I hope tat he love me too
Jesus say : y did u go far away from me when all I want is to love u? I hope tat u love Me too

I say : I wish that when he’s sick or sad, he’ll thk of me n need me
Jesus say : I wish that when u’re sick or sad, u’ll thk of Me n need Me

I say : I cant love him coz im no 1 to him anymore
Jesus say : I can’t love u coz im no 1 to u…

I say : I keep looking for his car, hoping tat someday he will come n look for me, at least for just 1peep?
Jesus say : I keep looking for ur prayer, hoping tat someday u will come n look for Me, at least just for 1minute will do

I say : d pain is enough…I dun wan to love anymore
Jesus say : d pain is enough…but I will still always love u

I say : y did he take away my dreams my wish n my hope? My everythg? My Disneyland dream, my Disney songs, my dream of a bf tat I love n my wish of a family wif a 1tat I love…n happy ever after?
Jesus say : y did u take away my dreams my wish n my hope? My everythg? My house in heaven, my dream of staying with u all in my house tat I’ve built specially for u all, d whole family…happy ever after?

I say : I’ve never love any1 so much in my life other den my family members
Jesus say : u never love Me so much in ur life other den ur family members

I say : im tired of loving…
Jesus say : I am love…n u’re tired of me

I say : Jesus im so tired, I dun have any strength left anymore
Jesus say : y r u so weak? Where’s d strength tat I gave u?

I say : eventhough he’s not perfect, but he always seems perfect to me. So many thgs tat he did n say tat I dun lk n wonder what am I to him, but its still ok to me, coz I love him
Jesus say : eventhough u’re SO not perfect, but u always seems perfect to me. so many thgs tat u did n say tat is wrong, but its still ok. I die for all tat u did wrong, for ur imperfection, for everythg tat keeps u away from me…
bcoz I love u…

I say : Jesus, I wish I never met him before
Jesus say : den u will not know wat my love is all about, how much I love u all, how much I wish u all will thk of me, how I waited for ur prayers everyday every minute every second, how I wish tat u will love me, how much I wish tat I mean somethg to u all

I say : my heart hurts each time I thk of him
Jesus say : now u know y my sacred heart bleeds…I thk of all of u all d time

"N finally Jesus say : will u be mine n not leave me anymore?
U keep crying n crying n crying…do u know now how much I’ve cried for u all?"

“Jesus, I understand now. N I promise I will bear all ths n love u as much as u hv shown me wat’s ur love is. I can’t promise u anythg…coz ur love is so big n so wide…but know tat I do love U n U do mean a lot to me…my life…my strength…my hope…my guardian…my father…my creator…my everythg.”
...Fill my cup Lord, for i feel so dry so dry so dry now...

Love is a song tat never ends...

Maybe time will heal...

maybe i'll forget...

but till then...its poison...

a poison tat kills so slowly...so slowly...