low low battery...

feeling so tired...
i guess i've finish all my inner strength at work...
had been doing OT continuously for 2days...
n den went back to ipoh...(had a great time wif my lovely family)...
n den 4NIGHTS straight!!
yea...we use to do tat for management...
but now i guess i couldnt tolerate it anymore...
got use to working 2nites only...n den battery will be kong!

it makes my life kind of meaningless...
as after work, u had to jump to bed as u'll be walking zig zag or nodding infront of d comp
n den if u ever wake up b4 6pm, u'll be only searching for food,
n wif a full tummy jump bek to bed! =P

nite shift...it makes me kinda stress...
i don't know y...but i jz cant cope wif it...
couldnt finish my work on time...
taking care of 12patients...doing changes...noticing undone changes
makind sure everythg is prepared for d next day...
i jz cant make sure i left ntg wif so little time!
yea, i can skip supper wif my stomach growling away...
but work is still undone...

sigh...i really hate d "me" who works so slow
in a nice way...its call gentle...
but in reality...its call slow
i tell myself gv d care i wan to gv to my patients...
i must complete all d paper works ASAP!!
but no matter how hard i tried...work will still be slow...
mentor mummy will keep urging "yvonne u better faster arr! now ady wat time"
sigh* i really dun wan to be slow but how fast can i be??
i really tried!! n i really wanna keep trying!! but i feel tat i really can't!
n im so tired!!! i don't know wat to do...
coz its not jz work undone...but its slowing down other ppl as well...
n incomplete work leads to sad mummy mentor who has to bear d shit i left for her

how can i be independent by next mth??
oh shit!! i really hope tat these 2days of off...
i can sleep, rest n do all tat i need to regain my battery...
n spend some time wif Jesus...spiritually drained!!
but d other half of me urges me to go out...n dun be such a pity to rot at home!
sigh** so many thgs undone...
no time to study...room is such a mess...prayers unsaid, bible unread, books untouched...
oh my gdness...pls stop d time...in d end i still do ntg...
wat a procastinator i am! my dear yvonne...WAKE UP!!!
sigh* tat's all for now...fingers crossed...tmr gonna be shopping day wif my dear ting ting...
n den meeting koko for movie...Jesus is waiting still :(
sorry Jesus...i'll pack up now...see u later...muahh!!! Jesus...im so sorry! i love You!!